You meet new people, you get excited, you become friends, you laugh together, you share secrets, you reveal them your vulnerable side, you cry in front of them, you dream of spending time together, you dream of happiness…..
Then all of it recedes, you miss them, you wish you could go back, you don’t know how to start a conversation, you don’t apologize, you aren’t ready to accept an unsaid apology, you aren’t sure anymore, you try to breathe in the truth, you try different things to move on, in the process you meet new people, you get excited and you make friends without realizing that you are now again at the beginning of this note!
Let it be different this time. Don’t just roll on the scales of life forgetting how to be an artist, An Artist at life. May all those years that you spent surviving in this body be worthwhile. Go back in time, go up in time, keep moving but don’t get stuck in the wrong moments. Wrong moments suck the breath out of your entire existence. Choose wisely whether you want small meaningless happy moments that won’t even kick through your nerves or you want the long meaningful happy moments that pull the chord of your soul.
Run, grab yourself, push through, this can be the best chance you get. Don’t you just sit there staring blankly at the New Year poster and try to plan out everything, plans never work. We plan for things that we don’t wanna do and we act for things that we wanna do. So act ‘coz you can’t lose it, not right now where time slips through your fingers like water.
I hope you remember I always have been in love with you.